Archive for February, 2012

Confessions

February 28, 2012

I am a people person. I love hanging with my family, especially the ones that I do not see all the time. I love hanging out with friends. I love going all kinds of places with friends, to the movies or plays, out to eat, or any number of other things.

However, I also love having hours on end to myself to work on my computer, to write, and hopefully before much longer to have a job. (I have absolutely no prospects at this time.)  I think my dream would be to work lots on Mondays and Tuesdays, work on Wednesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays during the day, and have evenings to do things with friends or relax in front of a good movie.I really like doing fun things  HAMMER knowing that I have gotten the things that need to be done are finished.  Saturdays sometimes I’d work, sometimes I wouldn’t. Sundays are the day I almost never work, and don’t like being on the computer..

And I do like vacations, I really do. But most the time after a while, I’m ready for sometime to be by myself on the computer.. if I could, I I would get up really early, do my Bible reading and get straight to work… Just getting frustrated lately.

Kind of homesick

February 24, 2012

I am determined to do this today. There is no telling what tomorrow holds for us. And I want to make myself do two posts a week if I possibly can.

I am truly enjoying my time here. There’s no question about that. I will hate leaving my sister, her husband, and especially my new nephew. But I do miss home, and some of the comforts it affords. Since I am doing little except what is necessary still I am going to write out some of these.

  • It’s really nice having my own room, somewhere I can work and not really worry about someone reading over my shoulder at any time.
  • With my new nephew, we’ve had lots of visitors. Everyone has been friendly to me, but no one is making much effort to get to know me.
  • I miss my group. I’ve been blessed with a great home group. We share life together. I miss having that sounding board.
  • I miss going to my “other family” on Sundays after church..
  • I’m not even reading like normal because I’m being lazy and watching the idiot box as my grandmother calls tv instead.

We’ll be home next Thursday sometime..

Doing what’s necessary, not much more

February 21, 2012

Mom and I have to leave a week from today, don’t really want to. I’m checking e-mail, getting two weeks behind would be bad. I am writing, some. I finding that with writing and looking for work, the things I need to do, I’m much more comfortable doing that in quiet.

My sister’s place the downstairs pretty much one big area. And I love being where I can hear everything going on. But at the same time it’s hard.

I’m considering taking a personality test once we’re home, to see if they can give me any job ideas. Wish this job was alreadyfound. But then I’d have more I’d feel like I have to do. Ready to be done for today..

 

A very wild day

February 17, 2012

This is going to be a little more personal than usual. But I thought that this was the best place to share my experiences so that everyone could read them. It has also been difficult to get work done lately. Hopefully, Mom, my sister and her precious baby and I will hang out at the house this coming week, and I can get more done.

I’ve never enjoyed driving. But at least there I can usually listen to the radio, or whoever I am riding with will talk. Sometimes I can lie down in a vehicle. I also have a pretty good idea of where we are and how much longer it is going to take… None of that was possible in the plane. I couldn’t really hear any of the other people talk. Mom slept most the way. And I was just bored, really ready to get where we were going. I was also nervous because I was sitting in that hard chair when I am usually sleeping. I have to be careful about how much I’m on my bottom.

My sister did come with her mother in law to get us. They really really like each other and are usually fun to listen to. And riding home I lied down. The car die was much more enjoyable to me.

We get home. Thankfully I get straight to sleep. My sister was going to be induced that morning, so we thought we had several hours. Instead we had two. My sister did things quickly for a first baby.. Seeing my nephew being born was amazing! Tired as I was, I hated to leave him.

We all wish that my sister could get on home. She and the baby are great. She doesn’t need nurses to show her how to do everything.. But anyway, they’re saying tomorrow, and we’re hoping tomorrow morning..

Leaving for Washington tomorrow

February 14, 2012

Today has been kind of crazy. Mom and I head to Washington State tomorrow, and we’re packing and everything…

I must confess, I was about to give up doing this. I’m pretty discouraged. I did not get that job. Did not pass pass even the first part of that test. I guess this is better than taking the second part of that test, spending all those hours on it, and then not getting the job. Honestly, I’m not sure how much I would have enjoyed that job anyway.

I looked at jobs again today. Found nothing interesting. Okay,, I might have spent an hour looking. I know I need to look more. I’m just frustrated, and really not sure which way to go.

So I ended up just messing around. Mostly I read a book, one I’m not real happy about the way it ended. I hope things turn out right in the last book!. The book comes out right before my birthday.

I think the best news is that I am going to be bringing this laptop out west. I will be working out there. I mean, I don’t think we are going to do too much touristy type stuff with a brand new baby! 🙂 I will be able to work, write and keep this up hopefully. I am glad for that much at least.

Needing a break

February 11, 2012

I hoped to accomplish so much today. However, I’m working on that test for the Search Engine Evaluator job, and need a break, at least. Haven’t decided whether to get back to it today or finish this first part Monday. Kind of hate to  wait. This is the first part, which I have to pass in order to do the second longer (ugh!) part.

I think I’m doing okay, but kind of nervous.. I have their manual, and it is an open book test thankfully. It’s looking like it would be interesting enough work. I would be rating all kinds of websites. I have refused to do “adult content” sites.

I think I’m nervous about time because I am going to be traveling one day, and we aren’t sure about the wifi out at my sister’s.

I think this job might be a good one for me to get. It sounds like they’re pretty flexible. And any permanent job would mean that I’ve met the first goal with the center. That would be a wonderful feeling.

But I really don’t think I can work tomorrow. I think my body needs a day to relax..

A real job maybe

February 7, 2012

I’m trying my best to be faithful to do this as much as I can. My family is heading out a little later to see my brother and his family. I’m looking forward to hanging out with them.. But at the same time, well, I’m going to get to that later.

The thing that has me preoccupied is that yesterday I found a job that I might be able to get. And this is not just some littleproject that I could do, and then have to start looking at jobs all over again. This is hopefully going to be a permanent job!

I am going to have to take a test sometime this week. At first I thought the company was saying that this test was very hard to complete. Reading the e-mail again this morning, they’re saying that it is difficult to complete the test without reading an e-mail they are going to send. So I don’t really know how difficult this test will be reading and studying the e-mail like I plan to do.

They asked me to name how many hours I would like to work. Sadly I couldn’t write in the answer to that question. I put 31-40 hours. I’m a little nervous about that now, especially since I’ll start this while living at home.. Wondering if I am going to have any time for much else here..

I’m really hoping that this works, and that I’ll still have time to work on my writing and things like that. Really do. Getting this would mean that the center and I could check off finding a job, and start working on moving out which would be awesome!

Okay so, working thirty hours, writing, keeping up with this… My question is, we talked Sunday about how spending quality time with friends is important.. I love being with friends no question. I love being were with my family.. Balancing work are, school, friends and rest is just is going to be tricky, and I have no idea how everything is going to go.

Random thoughts

February 4, 2012

I know, I know, I’m late doing this. Monday through Thursday of this week I was very productive, and with everything going on with the center I need to be quite productive!

The most important thing I’m doing for the center is finding myself a job. I really want to find something about thirty ominutes a week, something that I can start pretty much right away. Getting a job I can do from home would be nice, but at the same time it would be nice to work somewhere else. I have pretty mixed feelings about this.

What I know is that I really want time on the computer to figure everything out. But I’m starting to go down to the abortion clinic to pray on Fridays. Yesterday was when we started this go around.. Yesterday was hard! They had a lot of business, and almost no one wanted to hear anything we were trying to say. I found it pretty discouraging honestly.

And this coming week we are going to go see my brother in Florida. And the week after that Mom and I head out to Washington State.. Haven’t discussed this with Mom, but I’m hoping to take my laptop out west so I can work some. Hopefully I can figure something out.